The 47th Revolution

I had begun my 45th year inside the peaceful, quiet scream of a Vipassana meditation retreat and left for 46 inside the belly of a war-torn, heart broken, and utterly epic Medicine Retreat. In like a lamb, out like Kali Ma! A lot happened in between those catalyzing moments of birth and death, of course. Many more heartbreaks and triumphs and uneventful days came and went too and, if this last year taught me anything at all, it taught me how to let go of people and things that I love with a little more grace.

RantsBeana BernApril 12, 2023Birthday Comment

Heavily Meditated: 10 Days of Vipassana

I’ve now been out of Vipassana for a little longer than I was in it and the effects are still integrating and very present for me. It’s difficult to really express what ten days of silence, no eye contact, no reading, no writing and no communicating with anybody or thing but my own body and mind feels like. Words that touch it are intense, challenging, purifying, amazing, fucking hard, fucking powerful and transformative. There are 3 main take aways that bubbled up tot he surface for me:

Life Is Ceremony, RantsBeana BernApril 22, 2021Vipassana, Meditation Comment

Transformation Fire 2020

Thank you to the 5 tenders of this years fire. Thank you to the beautiful Co-Creation Crew that held those tenders and wove magic and fun. Thank you to the special guests who brought their medicine and music to all of us for our joy and healing. Thank you to the Cosmic Egg for nourishing us with pizza and awe. Thank you to the many, many beautiful humans who wandered up the hill to sit by the fire, to call in their own transformation and to hold sacred this life and our right to live it in integrity.

Life Is Ceremony, RantsBeana BernNovember 1, 2020Transformation, TransformationFire Comments

44 in 2020

At the ripe young old age of 44, I am *finally* transmuting the faulty, dense, sticky, toxic programming that my parents and my society installed on my operating system. I am laying down the expectations of worth, success, beauty, cool, and "essential" imposed on me from anybody outside of me.

RantsBeana BernApril 12, 2020Birthday, RantComment

You Are the Medicine

As we find ourselves with time, time, time and a new world to co-create, I want to remind you that Rootstock Retreat is holding this sacred space and is available to guide you deeper into your core to help you navigate this new terrain with grace, with authenticity, with radical self-acceptance and unbridled creativity. Now, more than ever, the world needs you. It needs your vitality, your ideas, your songs, your medicine, your truth and it’s your task to show up. All of your ancestors survived unimaginable experiences for thousands and thousands of years so that you could walk and breath and live.

Prayers, RantsBeana BernMarch 18, 2020Rant, COVID19, Plant Medicine Comment

Have What You Need, Love What You Have

More and more I am coming to understand that surrender is not a weak act and prosperity doesn’t require material wealth. Going with the flow and loving what you have are, I now have no doubt whatsoever, indeed the secret sauce to a life well lived. The Holy Grail. The best kept secret of all time. Hiding in plain sight and as simple an answer to the ultimate question as there ever was.

Rants, PrayersBeana BernFebruary 23, 2020corporate capitalism, civilization, courage, happinessComment

Sad Sack

If sadness is an ocean, I’m privilege today to ponder it from a warm spot on the beach. With distance and comfort. The heavy waves lapping on the shore, the unseen riptide that can take hold and drown one towards depression, the smell of it, the vastness, the mystery lurking below the surface…. I know all too well what it is to float adrift in it with no sight of refuge but, this day, I’m like Johnathan Livingston Seagull. Nourishing myself with fruit from it, riding the thermal drift just above the surface, enjoying the reflection and play of light on its surface. Here I am, a perfectly happy human, contemplating sadness.

Life Is Ceremony, RantsBeana BernFebruary 1, 2020Sadness, Feelings Comments